At a Certain Point I Thought It Was Too Holy
A pub conversation with Ulf Sievers
Andrea Neumann: Most people only know you as the electro-nerd from Larry Peacock. But you've also been a companion of the Echtzeitmusik scene for many years now. Tell me a bit about your musical background again.
Ulf Sievers: I started out as a guitarist. I played with the Hamburg band Blütenstaup for a long time. Then, at the end of the nineties, I started working with the computer. I wanted to expand my horizons sound-wise. At the same time, I moved from Hamburg to Berlin. In the meantime, as you've already mentioned, I started playing with Larry Peacock. We make electro-pop, but you can hear influences from the Echtzeitmusik scene in our music, too.
AN: When was the first time you came into contact with the Echtzeitmusik scene?
US: It must have been around the mid-nineties. I was still studying in Hamburg at the time, but I was in Berlin a lot, visiting friends -there were just an insane amount of things going on here at that time. So they took me to concerts.
AN: What was your first impression of the Echtzeitmusik scene?
US: I was fascinated, thrilled. Just because of the places, the squatted buildings; there was Anorak for example . And of course because of the music. I found it very inspiring how people played together freely, beyond the limits of genre. However, the aesthetic then was really underground, much wilder and more anarchic than a few years later. The music stood for a certain life-attitude that I connect with post-reunification times in East Berlin. For me, that was the 'Wild East', where an unbelievable amount of things were possible.
AN: You're describing the Anorak scene in the mid-nineties. How did it continue?
US: There was still the Hochzeitsraum and a couple other temporary locations where free improvised concerts took place . There was a lot of experimentation. If you were lucky, in the course of one evening you could hear several formations that played freely and still sounded quite different from one other. At the end of the nineties, though, the scene transformed. Musicians who were quite active at the beginning became oriented differently; they weren't so present anymore. Instead, a small, solid core group of musicians played together quite a lot and developed a sound aesthetic all their own. It was defined as 'reductionism' later on. But for me, that was the point when I sort of stopped following things. All of a sudden there were once again so many rules for playing and so many unwritten laws about what was allowed and what wasn't allowed in the music. It was more of a turnoff for me. But maybe it was because of the sound that emerged as a result: at a certain point I found it too quiet and too holy.
AN: What exactly do you mean by 'holy'?
US: Well, silence became a quality in itself. It was practically celebrated . The sound emerged from silence and faded away into silence. That's what I mean by 'holy'. I don't know at all anymore what was holier, the silence or the sound. It got so calm and quiet that you weren't even allowed to go in and out during a concert anymore. Drinking beer had already become a disturbance… I once asked an acquaintance after a concert how she liked it. She said to me -no lie- 'Well, in the second set, at the beginning of the last third, there was such a beautiful moment. I liked that.' Seriously, I didn't want to hear something that precise. With such strict criteria, at a certain point I stop having fun with the music. It's too stressful for me, too. What should I do during all the time that's left over? Do I wait for this one good moment? Anyway, for me the scene had become too Protestant.
AN: What exactly do you mean by 'Protestant' in this context? You yourself grew up Catholic, as I've heard?
US: Yeah, yeah, that's correct. I went to a Catholic boarding school for boys . Prayers every morning and school mass once a week. Many say, however, that I have a streak of Protestantism in me. Maybe that's why I have such an allergic reaction to other Protestants. What I mean by Protestant is that the music was powered by so much earnestness and zealousness. There was something completely doctrinaire about it. And labour-intensive. I mean, you don't have to leave the stage and feel like you're totally fabulous, but this other extreme, this self-Iaceration- 'It wasn't very good. 'The improvisation wasn't successful this time', and 'The thing we have to do better is .. .'- I anyway find all this copious talking after a concert difficult. I've always thought, what are you searching for actually? Maybe you're looking for something that can't exist at all. That's a paradox indeed, the perfect improvisation, right? Failure is pre-programmed in that. But this anger was probably perceived as productive. To some extent, the suffering caused by imperfection was really overglorified, taking into account, of course, the fact that the old cliché of the genius artist who sacrifices himself for his art is embedded in this attitude. Anyway, that's not really my thing . And you could have a little humour, joke about it, right? But instead, people got angry. A fight would get started by something as little as someone playing the right note at the wrong time.
AN: Haven't you experienced this in other musical contexts where there are also rules, where people also get angry when you play something the others don't like?
US: Sure, but take my old band Blütenstaup. We decided together on individual songs that proceeded according to clearly agreed-upon structures and rules. One 'rule'-and there were others, too- was that I never played a jazz guitar solo because I knew that the others think that's shit. But like I said, it was clearly agreed upon. I believe it was different in the improv scene. Lots of old contracts detailing how music should be made were annulled - I thought that was really cool and liberating- only to quickly lay down new rules again that weren't always transparent and clear in the end, or that were open to very different subjective interpretations.
AN: But you were always fascinated by the scene, too, weren't you?
US: Yeah, no doubt. I was enthused much of the time and thought the whole thing was really inspiring. I improvise too sometimes, but more in order to generate new ideas. It is, ultimately, a finished song that I want in the end. In this regard, I can of course ask myself the question of whether I'm impatient, product-oriented, and too capitalistic. I've always understood Echtzeitmusik as a critique of music as commodity. But then doesn't it make more sense in that regard when some things are not totally perfect? Anyhow, it really got on my nerves from time to time. From a certain point on, it was simply a question of aesthetics. The musical guidelines were too narrow for me. So much was made taboo all of a sudden, things that were still important to me. In any case, I wasn't ready to completely give up parameters I was fond of, such as pitch and pulse/ rhythm, and I couldn't give the necessary appreciation to the new qualities that were supposed to emerge. Research noise-like sounds? Yes. But what's the problem with going on to process these new sounds in rhythmic structures? This was almost considered provincial. That did make the scene seem narrow and elitist to me. And from a certain point on, I asked myself whether this narrowness isn't also uncreative. Whatever. We could rant about my ambivalent relation to the Echtzeitmusik scene forever. Let's get another drink instead. I have to leave in a minute. The babysitter gets off work at eleven.
Translated by William Wheeler